
Our hunt for perfection is comprised of a deep instinct to discover eternal truth, the desire to manifest the fullness of our hidden potentialities and a longing for unending freedom. These are examples of humanity’s inevitable search for meaning. Without a higher consciousness, life will forever remain imperfect and incomplete. Without knowing who I really am and what my aim in this vast existence is, everything that I yearn, learn or earn will be unfulfilling and futile.

The question therefore arises that why is the assignment of knowing who I really am, so difficult? On the face of it, it should be an effortless task. Afterall, every other being in the natural world appears to be in synch with its purpose. We on the other hand, seem to have lost our internal compasses – our emotions and identities are frequently clouded, fragmented and conflicted. It is therefore correct to ask that why we have lost our integrity; why do we feel so divided and why do we suffer so much from this internal conflict?

One of the major reasons for our failure to attain inner congruence is caused by the world that we are born into. Our inner aspirations and worldly expectations do not seem to be aligned together. World does not want us to be, what we are born to be. World or society, whatever name we want to give it – functions to achieve one simple objective; which is to make every person an efficient and obedient instrument, like a robot, which is programmed to say yes to every command that it receives. Society wants us to be its slave, obedient to its unspoken rules and more efficient one becomes in following these rules, more respectable and more honored he or she becomes in its eyes.

Look at the ideals that society parades in front of us and look at the way those ideals are enforced upon us so that we can be trained to live with dissatisfaction, furiously occupied with an obsession of what we should be while being completely oblivious to what we were born to be. And apart from a split personality, a fractured self and an ever unhappy individual – what else this obsession can offer?

The fact is that we cannot be anything other than who we inherently are. Any attempt to be something else ultimately results in nothing other than conflict, guilt, misery, pain, and a trauma that no medicine can heal. The root of all emotional suffering is the conflict and dissonance arising from this entrenched phoniness. Indeed, suffering comes from splitting and happiness comes from harmony.

Society creates this split to help us become a better servant to the societal norms and unknowingly we become part of this cunning game, where we are constantly in battle with no one else but ourselves. How can then anyone discover congruence in that battleground? A constant conflict of not feeling happy with what we have become, feeling uncertain of who we are and where we are heading in our lives have really confused us.

Living to impress others or to meet their expectations, can never be fulfilling. Even though we know we are dissatisfied or at some level doomed, our mind tells us to find relief by working even harder to meet societal expectations. So, we corrupt our intelligence and instincts at the cost of wholesomeness and self-realization by running ever more in the wrong direction. In this way we will never arrive at our true destination, no matter how fast we run.
The first step in the journey of finding peace is to accept ourselves – just the way we are – nothing more and nothing less! This begins with efforts to become at one with ourselves; at one with our emotions, at one with our impulses and at one with our imperfections. How can I know myself if I am unable to love or even accept myself?

In centring ourselves and by learning not to compete with others, we start to feel fulfilled with what little we have. Our first duty is to be responsible for ourselves. Once we learn to respect ourselves, value ourselves, love ourselves and rejoice in ourselves, the gates will open for us to be who we were truly born to be.
Author: Dr. Chinmay pandya